Kimolisa Was Here

Here are some pics that I found on ffffound of things that make me smile or coo.





Yes I'm making up for all the days I missed.

Today I got my daily newsletter from essence.com, and I was looking through their site, I come across this article, What Type Are You?. Basically, it's asking you what kind of woman are you with examples of Black TV sitcom characters. Even though I saw bits of me in many of the characters, e.g. a lover of love like Joan in Girlfriends or the ball-buster-man-eater like Maxine in Living Singles, the person whose description fit me most was Kimberly Reese from A Different World.

I am Miss Independent. And it's true I can do so much for myself, I don't need anyone to take care of me on a material level. And still I need someone to look out for me, someone who will be there when I need a shoulder to cry on. Funny thing is I had downloaded a bunch of songs by Jill Scott and I came across this song, The Fact Is (I Need You). It speaks so many truths about me, I can do all these things, but I need you.

I just moved on from an unhealthy situation, and today was the actual day that I let go of it. I'm not looking back, and I'm going to try to avoid men like that individual because I want more. I now claim my title as queen, and I want the real thing. It's funny how I end up with men who have girlfriends. Do I have a sign on my head which reads "Ideal for cheating on your girlfriend!"

Anyway, I drifted a little bit, but the idea is clear. I love me, I want a man who loves me, too or at least will eventually. The last couple weeks were tumultuous, whereas I was on a plateau of happiness and being at peace and it scared me to my core. To me it was like what Christians experience and I am not a Christian. I ended up running to something that caused me grief. Between last night and this morning I let go of the grief and I chose to be happy and at peace, even if it scares me.

One life, live it

There was a time when I didn't care for the following, it was what happened to other people, not for me. Then I bought into the idea, basically what these pictures portray or what the quote says. The thing is that doesn't happen all the time, but when it happens, treasure it. When it's real protect it. When these moments happen less than the less than beautiful moments, it's time to let go.
The sad thing is some of us want to fall in love, have the relationship, live happily ever after with any poor sap. It's time to change that thinking, without truly loving someone these same beautiful moments are as manufactured and produce as any blockbuster movie. When you are in that moment with the right person, the lighting will be perfect, everything will feel right. So stop looking for love, start looking for happiness.


Yes, people start looking for happiness, strangely enough love will find it's way in. This brings me to this next pic, drama is everywhere but it doesn't mean you have to put up with it. Live the simple life. Good food. Good company. Good experiences. Do what you love. Be happy, or at least get as close as possible.

And if you need to learn how, you can start off with following the pic below.

When I looked at the date of the above picture, 2005, I thought to myself, what have I truly accomplished over the last 4 years. No, I'm not trying to make myself depress, it's just self reflection. It's an incentive to make the next 4 years a whole lot memorable.

Of course, the pics came from ffffound and vi.sualize.us. I love, love, love these sites, me being a visual person and all.

My dad has a picture in his office, he got it when we all went to a gallery on a hill. In the photo is a guy walking on the beach. My dad says this picture reminds him of a moment in his life when he was the man walking on the beach.

Well this picture reminds me of me, trying to be in focus, trying to stand out and be seen. Sure I look like all the others, but you should really focus on me. I guess that's why I hold on to the people who pay attention to me. I just want to be noticed.

Okay, I don't really have anything to say today, so here are some random pics that tickled my fancy.
I love forests and this one is so eerily cool.

I would like to try this on mundane things just for a laugh.

I'm rooting for the black one, he looks like he's doing some damage.

I'm looking forward to having my own store front.

This is so true, I always say this and then I realize that I can't do it.

All the pics came from fffound, one of my new favourite sites.

If you don't know it by now, I will let you know now, I am a sucker for love. Yes, I am a romantic, that is why I'm posting this video. I found it on Le Love. The write up is as follows:

A girl misses her train to Milan and is set to wait overnight in Rome until dawn. However, a chance encounter with a guy changes her plans and the night lights of the capital turn into the background to a tender love story. An extraordinary chemistry made of knowing glances and small gestures fills the few instants that separate them both from the sunrise.

Short film made with 4500+ still photographs. Shot with a Canon EOS 30D camera.

This film reminds me of Italy and unfortunately a lot of opportunities lost. Then again that is another post.

Enjoy.

Peace y'all!!


Notte Sento (English subtitles) from napdan on Vimeo.

Funny, I wasn't planning to do a post today as I had pressure just below my eyes. Then I cooked cause I was hungry and I already put out the meat - Kung Pao Chicken on brown rice (yum).

Anywho, I ended up watching Easy Virtue online (shh, don't tell anyone). I must say I did enjoy it. I'm going to be honest, I'm not a big fan of English cinema (Gasp), but I have a soft spot for Colin Firth. According to IMDB, the plot is,

A young Englishman marries a glamorous American. When he brings her home to meet the parents, she arrives like a blast from the future - blowing their entrenched British stuffiness out the window.

So here is my thoughts on it, I liked it better than Watchmen. What more reason do you need to watch it? Okay seriously, to me, it was well executed, I liked the characters, the humour was not too dry and I liked that it didn't end in an expected manner. It was definitely true to reality. It speaks to the heart of marriage and family.

Funny how I had a discussion with some people at my 7-to-5 about this same thing. Kimmy (not me) was talking about a grown woman who got married and the husband moved in with her in her grandmother's house. Also living in said house was the grandmother and the woman's brother. There is no way in hell that would happen, it's either we have our own house or move into an apartment. I would never in a million years make whoopie in my grandmother's house, hell I couldn't do it in my parents house (it just didn't feel right).

Anyway, I'm drifting, the movie was good, I loved Jessica Biel's pants in the movie. I might consider revisiting the 20's era in terms of inspiration. Check out the trailer below.

Peace y'all.



Oh and for the record, I watch movies online because not all the movies come to the cinema here in Antigua and if it weren't for movies online I would have missed out on a lot of good movies.

A couple posts back, I posted about this new concept to me called Writing Prompts that I found on another blog. It took me approximately 11 days to pull up the courage to do the first one. The first one is as follows:

01. seek out the real you. what inspires you? find books with passages highlighted and markings in the margins. start with the quotes and go from there. why does it speak to you? what about this statement makes you feel? who do you want to be? hunt down college notebooks if you have to. go to the place when you felt alive and write from there.

The prospect of seeking out the real me was quite daunting but I'm going to let it flow. So here it is me flowing.

What inspires me? Almost everything, the sky, the whole vast nature of it, the clouds from the leviathans of the sky to those like the scales of a fish. People inspire me, I mentioned Quentin Tarantino in my other blog, he inspires me to do what you love, he loves movies, I love clothes. I'm inspired by his making a style of his own. It's funny how nature inspires me so much and I spend so little time in it. I'm fascinated by the stars and I love the moon.


I read a lot, well I did. Now I look at it I believe I'm going to go back to literature, books that had depth and dimension as opposed to a basic story. He did this, she did that. One of the books that I've read more than once was Pride and Prejudice. A delightful read indeed, that is a funny statement coming from a Black Chic. I've started to read motivational books but I have a problem of not finishing them. I think a part of me wants to be an underachiever, good thing that part is going to die.

I once had this quote that I liked,

Do or do not, there is no try.

To me it means, you're either doing it or you're not, to say you're going to try means you don't have the belief that you're going to do it well, and why do something if you're not going to do it well.

Another quote I liked was

People who say it cannot be done should not interrupt those who are doing it.

I guess that is one that I failed to live up to. I let life's shortcomings make me believe it can't be done. I censored myself so much that I became a shell of other people's opinions. Looking back at life, there was a lot of things I would have changed or done differently. For one I would have stayed in New York. I can't undo those things, but what I can do is change the way I do things from now on.

The places where I felt the most alive are the places that scare me. Being stranded in the Frankfurt airport, then Amsterdam airport, walking around in Cuba alone. I guess I have two types of fears, the one that tells me no don't do that and the one that pushes me forward. I need to feel the latter more often.

Who am I now? A person stuck, a person who has dug a whole so deep that it doesn't look like she can get out. The thing is I will get out, I can't live like this forever. This is my life and I intend to live it my way. I am the only one responsible for my own happiness, I intend to be happy.

If you were reading my other blog, I mentioned how an old flame pretty much messed with my head. Nutshell: One Sunday, I got a text from a buddy I hadn't spoken to in months. I texted him back, I called him, blah, blah, blah. When I got through to him, his reason for texting me was he woke up and he thought of me and texted me. That messed with my head. Yes, I am a work in progress.

Well, weeks passed and I had gotten pass it, so I texted him, like he texted me. He texted back and I am going to leave it at that. You know why? For one, I have no business messing with that man, he's practically married, for two, this time around it's all about me.

My sister posted the following YouTube clips on her blog and it got me to thinking. Why am I the one who initiates, hell I should be fricking Jessica Rabbit and just sit around and let Mr. Right come get me. Ok that way a bit anti feminist, and I still think I'm on the side of the feminist. What I am trying to say is I should be out there having fun, enjoying life, not being scared $h!tless about my biological clock. Hell, it's when you're out having fun that you meet someone.

Oh God this post got really long. Shite. Anywho, here are the clips:

I couldn't think of a thing to write about. Yes, there are so many things I want to address, but at this moment in time I don't want to. Crazy, huh?

I've started to question the purpose of this particular blog. What am I suppose to be blogging about for people to read it? Then again, some of the things I want to write here are quite personal. So why put it on the internet? I want my story to be written, to be more than another person on this island who will die and be forgotten without people knowing who I truly am.

On the outside, people perceive me as quiet, shy, aloof, introspective. On the inside, I'm trying to undo all those perceptions (well now I'm trying) I want to laugh more, meet interesting people, have fun for a change. I want to be alive.

I guess this blog is my voice to the outside world. A snapshot of my inner workings. It's a crazy ride. It's a personal ride. This is the place I will be real and honest, even if it makes me uncomfortable.

This is not about readership. This is about my journey out of madness. If you don't like it, read another blog.

(pic: GameSpot)

Hiya...

I am so proud of myself once again. I did another shirt and it's 99% good. Spirit dance. Below are some pictures of it. I can't wait for my screenprinting kit to arrive. Yeah!!!

Last night I was working on the t-shirts and they came out 95% good, yeah!!! I don't know but working on this project is just so good for me because it makes me so happy. When I'm happy, I am so peaceful, nothing can bring me down. I didn't even put on my computer so that is why there was no post for yesterday.

I also ordered a screenprinting kit which should arrive next week or the week after. My spirit is doing a happy dance in my body. I've discovered why starting this business has been so frustrating. All the time, I was going to rely on others to produce the shirts which left me open to disappointment. Now when I do it myself it's so much more satisfying to see my vision becoming real in my own hands. I'm not doing it for money, I'm doing it for satisfaction.

Okay the title of this post is Travel in Groups, so once again floating through the internet and I found this on See Hear Say. I think my sister will like this because she likes penguins. If I didn't have to depend on my CRV, I would take the bus. Then again I was more a subway kinda chick when I lived in NYC.

Enjoy!!

I am so tired that I can't think or put together a comprehensive..... oh dear, I can't even finish this sentence. Random things:

1/ Who can you trust? One of the suppliers for where I 7-to-5 informed us that his salesperson who does business with us is no longer with them and that our company had over $3,000.00 for his company. Well my records show otherwise, so I went back and looked it up and there it was where we gave the same salesperson $2,000.00 cash and he signed to it. It turns out that was one of the reasons the salesperson is not with them anymore and they were with the company for about 11 years. So I ask the question who can you trust?

2/I've been feeling a bit weak, but I resisted the urge to call an old friend. The funny thing is it scares the bejesus out of me to be so good. Not messing around with the wrong guys, having faith that good things will come, being inspired by all facets of life, seeing people for who they are. I feel uncomfortably like a christian. Don't get me wrong if people want to be christians good for them, but for me, I want to look beyond the doctrines of the church and see everything on a higher level.

3/ So I drifted into this blog that is suppose to be the opposite of the Le Love Blog and amazingly he has over 157 profile views and a couple followers well and he has only been blogging for a month. So what is the deal, simply put he is an ass, a total tool, I'm not even going to give a link to the blog. Am I bitter? Hell no! I can attest the higher volume to the link from Le Love and then the subsequent followers to people either wanting to see what else he would say or they too are anti love. I guess people love conflict, you can see the large viewership of Jerry Springer as proof.

4/ I made burritos, I have some left over. They weren't bad, but I wasn't particularly hungry so I don't think I appreciated them as much. I did a post on making cinnamon buns on the other blog but I didn't set a date when I will be making them, so I will make them next week Wednesday.

Well this posting is called more pics, so here they are:

This pic is all about being evil, while below is all about being good. Why is it so easy to be bad?

Yesterday was so bad, I mean high stress levels, things keep coming up and I swear it would have broken me down a year ago. Amazingly, I refused to be down and it worked. I then came home and kept busy, I cleaned and I worked on my two side projects. One of the projects is a little graphic/printing business, I was busy printing samples. The other project is my baby, the apparel company.

For so long I've been trying to get it up, but things always popping up, men, my 7-to-5 job, but it's a new year and I'm doing what is right for me. So yesterday, I got the bones of the fitted t-shirt right. It felt it so good that the good vibes were with me today. Here's a couple pics of the t-shirt.



I plan to make this happen and take baby steps.

For a long time I was not accepting of myself as a person. It's been over the last few years that I can say I like me, but I still have some more work to do. So you might see more pics of me on this blog, excuse the vanity. Anyway, before I would use any other name for clothing companies I would think up, and it was within the last year that I decided to use my name. Only thing is my name alone sound more couture than streetwear, it was some days into having this second blog that it hit me that I should use the blog name. So the name of my apparel company is Kimolisa Was Here. As time goes by I will keep you up to date with the goings on.

I shall embrace my future.

I was on facebook and I saw a quiz about cartoons in the 80's. Being an 80's kid, I did it and got 100%, as well as discovered JEM again. I used to watch it every Saturday. You know what is funny, it only lasted 3 years, but when you are young that felt like a long time. They even had dolls, but I wasn't into them as their heads and/or bodies were huge compared to a regular Barbie. It's nice to reminisce, sometimes grown up life can be so stressful and depressing and it's nice to remember a time when life wasn't so complicated.

Below is the Wikipedia write up:

Jem (stylized as Jem and the Holograms in some contexts) is an American animated television series that ran from 1985 to 1988 in U.S. first-run syndication. The show is about music company owner Jerrica Benton, her singer alter-ego, Jem, her band the Holograms, and their adventures.

The series was a joint collaboration by Hasbro, Marvel Comics, and Sunbow Productions, the same team responsible for G.I. Joe and Transformers. The creator of the series was Christy Marx, who also had been a staff writer for the aforementioned programs. The animation was provided by a Japanese animation studio called Toei Doga (now Toei Animation).

The show was originally designed to appeal to both girls and boys, with a mix of action/adventure, drama, music, and fashion. As the show progressed, the audience gradually became almost entirely girls.

I YouTubed it, so here is the first episode:







I am so going to watch all I can find.

Once again I was floating through the internet and I came upon Zmaga's blog and just as I was about to move on, I saw these Writing Prompts. Honestly they inspired me because right now I'm trying to put myself right, get to know myself and make myself a better person and someone I like. so here is one set:

writing prompts | week 03.
the real you. u be u. i'll be me. in high school i wore a red tee shirt with that phrase on it. i loved that shirt. i loved that shirt to death. i wore it til the seams frayed. oh how i felt like the real me in that tee.

01. seek out the real you. what inspires you? find books with passages highlighted and markings in the margins. start with the quotes and go from there. why does it speak to you? what about this statement makes you feel? who do you want to be? hunt down college notebooks if you have to. go to the place when you felt alive and write from there.

02. guilty as charged. what are you guilty of? spending days on the couch with a silly novel? careless about making your bed? what are your guilty pleasures? blogging / cookie dough / sephora / juicy gel pens / polka dot dishes / staying up late for letterman / bubble baths.. i have a million.

03. what is your motto? a cute gal interviewed me the other day for an essay she was writing. she asked me this great question. i came up with something pure and directly from my mind without thinking too much. it wasn't that great. but i suppose it was true and honest. so i went with it. now that I've whirled over her question, i have come up with a hundred more mottoes to live by. what statements do you live by?

I'll try to do even though I'm really interested in the first and last one. So as soon as I have it sorted you'll see a post.

My first blog is all about my poetry, this blog is about self development, inspiration and happiness. I just want to be happy, don't you?

I'm not a financial whiz kid but I liked this

So I'm online, MSN Messenger with my sister in Leeds and she says do not go to the cinema to watch Watchmen. This reminded me to the lack of a review from CommunityChannel on YouTube. So I ventured to watch it (online, ssshhh, don't tell anyone) and my response is: "Are you kidding me?!?! No really, are you kidding me?!?) I'm in the middle of watching it and I still don't get it. Don't worry, I was going into it with an open mind, I was not going to be influenced by others. But come on!!

Okay, here is what I like, the reference to another movie directed by the director. In the first action scene, the so-called super-hero threw a cup at his attacker and it hit his door, crashing on the room number, 300. I like that kind of stuff, hidden treasures in movies.

What I didn't like is the lack of clarity, as soon as you come out of the murky waters of this film, you enter a dense fog. Maybe they were putting to much in the movie that could have been edited out for clarity sake. It's not as though you have a clear idea of who the bad guy or guys are, nor do you have pieces of puzzles to direct you to a possible suspect. Then again I may not have been looking hard enough for those pieces, as I was bombarded with everyone's and their mamas' back story. Okay one mama's back story.

Alright, there is one other thing I like. Hello naked blue guy. For so long, movies have had the naked female form, but what about us women? Don't we deserve a little eye candy? Thanks for the eye candy, no thanks for the entire movie.

I put this movie in the category, I wouldn't pay to watch it, I'll wait for it to come out on cable.

Yes, ladies and gentlemen, I voted today. Had to drive to three different polling stations, but I got to vote at long last. You know what was crazy though, I went to the first one, about 5 people in front of me. I wait my turn, go in they call my name and they look through the book, my name isn't there. They tell me to go to another polling station in another village. So I drive to the other village, 3 people ahead of me, they call my name, I'm not there. So a poll clerk took my name and looked it up in a book of voters in the constituency. I'm to go to another polling station in another village. The village between the first village and the second village. So I drive to that village, no one is ahead of me, I vote and I'm on my way. Okay I know I was in the wrong for not checking where I was suppose to vote, but they could have checked the book at the first polling station. I'm just saying.

Any who, below are pics of me and my blackened finger.

I wish I had more information on him, but his name is Klint De Drunk. Enjoy: