I subscribe to Angel Pariz on YouTube and this was one of his latest videos. It was made using the Xtranormal website. I'm posting it because it is something I can relate to and it is always endearing to hear someone else being so vunerable about something they love.
As I was catching up with the blogs I follow, I discovered Mia Michaels on Apartment 513 and to say I was blown away by her choreography is the ultimate understatement. She is my new inspiration and.... okay let me lay it down.
The clip that was on Apartment 513 is the second clip below. At first I was intrigued, it was a mixture of this is fluid and interesting how the body moves beyond the parameters of every day movement, and some of these moves make me feel uncomfortable. I believe the uncomfortable part is likened to venturing into the unknown, being drawn to it but being afraid to let go of what you know. I liked her style, it was definitely different from what I've seen and yet it reminded me of Cirque Du Soliel.
So I went to YouTube and plugged her name into the search and the more clips I watched the more I liked her as a choreographer. I liked the fact that she could conceive, I won't say create, conceive is a more fitting word, the dances. I like the fact that she could communicate the moves to the dancers so that they could perform it so effortlessly. I like how she got into choreographing and how she encourages people (the last clips).
The clip below was eerily beautiful, that's all I got to say.
I don't know this woman from Eve but she has a new fan. Check out her website.
I know I'm behind whenever I watch and review a movie. The movie would come out a month or two ago and I would watch it now. Well in this case I didn't watch it right away because I thought it would be a total heartbroken, depressing movie. Far from it, in fact I liked it, would I get it on DVD? On the fence.
I liked the characters, I thought I would hate Summer as is evident from the trailer she would be the one who does the heart breaking. Truth be told, she was honest from the beginning, she was not looking for something serious. It kind of shows how we build up these imaginary walls around a relationship then filling the house those walls made with our "love" (more like our concept of it) but instead making a prison for the other person with our expectations. They want fun, a warm body to hold them at night, you want a lifetime of devotion and fidelity. I think I got off course.
I also like the movies time line, which kind of reminds me of Quentin Tarantino's work in such films like Reservoir Dogs and Kill Bill. They start in the middle, the start is patchworked into the middle, but the end will always be the end.
Another thing I liked was there were some corny scenes, but it wasn't as corny because it was done well. Look out for the cartoon bird.
I'm going to go looking for the soundtrack, there were some songs in the movie that had me really take notice. Here are the ones I really liked:
Okay I might get it on DVD. Check out the trailer below.
This morning a dog appeared at my work place. He was shaggy and had both a harness and a collar. He came sniffing around at the back and as it was raining took shelter with us. He was friendly in the right amount, not practically humping you and not cowering in fear. All I could think is he is love. He played with everyone who came along and when you were leaving he looked like he was going to miss you even if you spent a few seconds in his company and didn't take notice of him. Everyone at work liked him and somehow he brought out the best in people. I don't think he was trying to impress us or make him like him in the way humans do, he just wanted to play, he just was a dog.
You know what is the crazy thing, I'm originally a cat person, but some how I'm becoming a dog person. Only thing is I'm holding off getting one until I have kids, hey someone has to take care of it and play with it on a regular basis. At least with a dog you can talk to it and it appears like it is listening, with a cat it looks bored and couldn't care less, with the exception of Bubbles, a black and white furry kitten who only lasted a short period of time but who appeared to like you.
Okay, I'm rambling.
Here's the lyrics:
When it hurts so bad, when it hurts so bad
Why's it feel so good?
When it hurts so bad, when it hurts so bad
Why's it feel so good?
I loved real, real hard once
But the love wasn't returned
Found out the man I'd die for
He wasn't even concerned
I tried, and I tried, and I tried
To keep him in my life
I cried, and I cried, and I cried
But I couldn't make it right
But I, I loved the young man
And if you've ever been in love,
Then you'd understand
What you want might make you cry
What you need might pass you by
If you don't catch it,
If you don't catch it,
And what you need ironically
Will turn out what you want to be
If you just let it,
If you just let it
See, I thought this feeling
It was all that I had
But how could this be love
And make me feel so bad?
Gave up my power,
I existed for you
But whoever knew the voodoo you'd do?
But I, I loved the young man
And if you've ever been in love you'd understand
What you want might make you cry
What you need might pass you by
If you don't catch it
And what you need ironically
Will turn out what you want to be
If you just let it,
What you want might make you cry
What you need might pass you by
If you don't catch it
And what you need ironically
Will turn out what you want to be
If you just let it,
If you just let it
When it hurts so bad, when it hurts so bad
Why's it feel so good?
When it hurts so bad, when it hurts so bad
This was one of those times when I can say, yes, ma'am, I can relate to this song. The line that hooked me and made me think that is it was:
But I, I loved the young man
And if you've ever been in love you'd understand
What you want might make you cry
What you need might pass you by
If you don't catch it
And what you need ironically
Will turn out what you want to be
If you just let it,
This hits home when I think of Zen, and I mentioned it the last post that I am happy, well I'm happier now than I've ever been with either Zen or OG. I'm learning to truly love myself and yes I want a companion, but if I don't know how to love myself, how do I expect someone else to.
A couple months ago, I had posted a post where I was feeling so down for not getting a store space and I honestly broke down a bit. I didn't see where I was going in terms of my future but I knew I was not happy with my current situation and I will be honest it is not my perfect situation, but instead of dwelling on it I'm trying to make myself happy.
I had mentioned that I had started a project and did not go into details because I didn't want to be an Antiguan and talk talk talk and don't do. Well, I've started and I must say it really makes me happy. I've gone back to what I studied starting a decade ago, Fashion Design. I'm relearning draping and pattern making and it took me a while to get the perfect drape on my dress form, about four tries, but I got it. I was not completely happy with the fit of my first pattern draft, the back hip was too tight, the waist was to much excess, but I got it right. Instead of giving up (my modus operandi), I plugged on and the pride and the good vibes I got from succeeding was all I needed, it put me in good spirits. I enjoyed every step of the process, and it will be a while before I can put together a small collection and take it to market, but I will get it. Someone once said, Happiness is not a destination, it's a journey. Although I may have thought it, I now truly understand it.
Below is the sewn foundation skirt on the dress form and the completed skirt slopers for both the dress form and me.
I had mentioned that I had started a project and did not go into details because I didn't want to be an Antiguan and talk talk talk and don't do. Well, I've started and I must say it really makes me happy. I've gone back to what I studied starting a decade ago, Fashion Design. I'm relearning draping and pattern making and it took me a while to get the perfect drape on my dress form, about four tries, but I got it. I was not completely happy with the fit of my first pattern draft, the back hip was too tight, the waist was to much excess, but I got it right. Instead of giving up (my modus operandi), I plugged on and the pride and the good vibes I got from succeeding was all I needed, it put me in good spirits. I enjoyed every step of the process, and it will be a while before I can put together a small collection and take it to market, but I will get it. Someone once said, Happiness is not a destination, it's a journey. Although I may have thought it, I now truly understand it.
Below is the sewn foundation skirt on the dress form and the completed skirt slopers for both the dress form and me.
One of my favourite scenes from BeetleJuice. Sorry that it had to be in Italian.
The simple fact that I know about half of these lines or have seen a part of almost all these movies shows I watch too much movies. LOL!
As I mentioned in a post I've been following B. Scott on YouTube for a while and it was through B. Scott that I found Brian. Now to start off Brian can be crazy and off the wall, but there are videos that show his vulnerable side and it is those videos that stop me from Unsubscribing.
So here are a few videos on recovering from relationships. Enjoy.
How to get over a broken heart (roughdraft)
B. Scott Says Don't Be Afraid To Be Alone (S3:4)
Oh, and person had this quote in a comment on the B. Scott's video:
So here are a few videos on recovering from relationships. Enjoy.
How to get over a broken heart (roughdraft)
B. Scott Says Don't Be Afraid To Be Alone (S3:4)
Oh, and person had this quote in a comment on the B. Scott's video:
Being alone is steroids cause it makes u strong.
golden ocean
Originally uploaded by H o g n e
To discover new oceans
You need the courage
To lose sight of the shore
Teilhard de Chenin
courtesy Do Blog
Lone in Dune - Sand Dunes, Stovepipe Wells, Death Valley National Park
Originally uploaded by Raj Hanchanahal
Ladies and gentlemen, I have no choice but to admit it. I am a loner. I doubt it was my choice, now I look at it, it was a culmination of life experiences that turned me down this road of solitude. When I look back at my youth, I see some defining moments. For example, not being accepted by a certain group of girls or being rejected by someone who I was best friends with (that one was the kicker). From then on I've always kept people at a distance because, I believe, they will either hurt or betray me. It didn't hurt that my fondest memory of Kindergarten was when the rest of the class went somewhere and I was in the classroom working on a house made of match stick boxes. Basically, it's a form of self training, we do the things we like and makes us feel good. I felt good on my own rather than with my class mates, so naturally I gravitated to that.
According to urbandictionary.com, a loner is:
someone who doesn't need other people around them to validate there own existence.
There are more definitions, but I like this one, to check them out, check out urbandictionary.com.
Now don't get me wrong, I don't loathe the company of others, I just don't crave it 24/7. In fact I can name a few people who I consider friends (and I don't mean FaceBook friends). What I enjoy is eating out with friends, going to movies with friends, lounging around and talking and of course partying with friends (when I say party, I mean dancing the night away.)
Now here is where I'm conflicted, I enjoy the all of the above but I love my alone time. I believe what I'm looking for is a middle ground where I can up and go to a movie on my own and I can call up a friend and talk for a couple hours or plan to do something. I like the idea that we could go and do our separate things and come together every now and then to catch up with each other even if it is every week or every month.
That's why I like blogging, it gives me a chance to thrash out new ideas. Now it's to figure out how to meet some local friends and find the balance.
This is a shout out to my sis who just left to go back to college today. I watched The Hangover and I must say I literally LMAO. So that is where you got the "Really, Kim, really." from. I didn't expect I would like this movie, but I liked it, DVD-worthy though? I'm on the fence, but I'm teetering towards the yes side. I need the laugh though after all that stressful crap, I'm back on the road to being less stressed. Oh and I love the baby, he was so adorable.
Okay, Sandra Bullock movies. I am a Sandra Bullock fan, I may not have seen all her movies, but I like what I've seen. The first one I've ever seen was Love Potion #9. I couldn't believe how long ago it was 1992, I watched it a couple years later. You can check out the movie on YouTube here.
The last movie I saw with her was The Proposal. Loved it. Cute Romantic comedy. I went with my mom and sis and we did the whole shrieking in the theater with laughter at some parts. I'm telling you laughter is the best medicine. Was an Oscar worthy film, no but it can take you out of a funk on a crappy day.
What I didn't know until recently was that there is another movie coming out, All About Steve. I'm not sure if I'll watch it at the cinema. It looks a bit hammy, it's like my not watching the movie she did with Ben Affleck. A simple matter of it's not you, it's the script. Below is the trailer:
Oh and I loved her in The Lake House with Keanu Reeves. That reminds me, have to get that on DVD.
Sometimes we are so busy trying to make things happen that we forget to appreciate what is allows happening.
I just had to add this. I, too, will become an iceberg!!
It's never easy to let go, but sometimes it's for the best for both parties.
(pics: vi.sualize.us)
I just had to add this. I, too, will become an iceberg!!
It's never easy to let go, but sometimes it's for the best for both parties.
(pics: vi.sualize.us)
Let me begin by saying I'm not a religious person. I'm not an atheist but I can't outright denounce God. I think it all stems from my first church experience, or at least the first one I can remember. The minister was basically insulting the congregation calling them sinners and at that point I decided I was not having any of that. No sir. Unfortunately that closed my mind to all ministers and men of the cloth, that is until the church service before my graduation from the Antigua State College. The minister was not insulting but inspiring, a breath of fresh air actually. From his sermon I remembered one thing, the opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.
Let me continue to say, I'm not a religious person, but I do enjoy T.D. Jakes. At least his sermons. I remember actually sitting and watching his show on one of those religious channels and feeling uplifted, but I don't really like the obvious (how do you say) pandering for money, religion as a business side to him.
As you can see I ramble more than a river.
Anyway, my dear friend in NYC called me last night about Chris Brown on Larry King and she mentioned that I watch Not Easily Broken. It's based on a novel by T.D. Jakes. So as there was a Tropical Storm in the area and I was home I watched it. I must say I liked it. Almost cried. I liked the visuals, the plot and the characters, and I liked the message. Nowadays it's so easy for people to get married and break up, it's nice to see a couple who genuinely love each other, who see where they have gone wrong and that shows that to make a relationship work they need to work. For more info check out the movie's site. Below is the trailer:
It was either last year or earlier this year. I think it was last year, my sister introduced me to B. Scott on YouTube and I have been a fan since. Here is a little info about him from Wikipedia:
Unfortunately, he hasn't been posting videos as often as before but there are few videos I watch when I need a little boost. They are below. Enjoy.
Brandon Scott Sessoms (born March 21, 1981) is a multi-racial, openly gay, American blogger, celebrity commentator and internet personality [1]. Sessoms works primarily under the abbreviated name, B. Scott.
Sessoms, as B. Scott, he has become a popular internet personality[2] through his visibility on YouTube and his personal website, "lovebscott.com". B. Scott's internet presence and his ability to gain interviews with celebrities such as Jordin Sparks, Ne-Yo, and Ashanti allowed him to branch out into a relationship with Access Hollywood[3] and Extra (TV series)[4][5].
Unfortunately, he hasn't been posting videos as often as before but there are few videos I watch when I need a little boost. They are below. Enjoy.
I've been meaning to do this post for a while or at least a series of things I genuinely like. So the first one is Tank Girl.
I first came across in the mid 90's when the movie came out and although the movie took it a bit far when it came to the character, it made me look up the comic and get to know what Tank Girl is all about. What I like about her is she is happy go lucky and does anything and everything she wants. Fun, fun. Basically, she possess some qualities I wish I had. What the hey, it's my blog so I will list them:
1. The ability to say what ever she wants and not care what people think;
2. The ability to wear what ever she wants;
3. Living life to the fullest and enjoying it;
4. Owning thing she really likes which are a reflection of who she is;
5. Having fun for fun sake;
6. Being a bad ass and not apologizing for it;
7. Trying things and not caring about the risks;
This is me talking, but I think as a woman we are told and taught to be dainty and always thinking about everyone's and their mama's feelings. When you show any form of independence or original thought that may lead to an alternative lifestyle you are viewed as "special" or "different". Well I've tossed the prospect of finding an ordinary, hardworking man who is looking for a nice enough woman. I'm going to have some fun for a change. Of course, I'm not going to say whatever I please at work but I will resist the urge to edit myself. Maybe I'll toss the 1001 list and work on the above list. Something to think about.
I first came across in the mid 90's when the movie came out and although the movie took it a bit far when it came to the character, it made me look up the comic and get to know what Tank Girl is all about. What I like about her is she is happy go lucky and does anything and everything she wants. Fun, fun. Basically, she possess some qualities I wish I had. What the hey, it's my blog so I will list them:
1. The ability to say what ever she wants and not care what people think;
2. The ability to wear what ever she wants;
3. Living life to the fullest and enjoying it;
4. Owning thing she really likes which are a reflection of who she is;
5. Having fun for fun sake;
6. Being a bad ass and not apologizing for it;
7. Trying things and not caring about the risks;
This is me talking, but I think as a woman we are told and taught to be dainty and always thinking about everyone's and their mama's feelings. When you show any form of independence or original thought that may lead to an alternative lifestyle you are viewed as "special" or "different". Well I've tossed the prospect of finding an ordinary, hardworking man who is looking for a nice enough woman. I'm going to have some fun for a change. Of course, I'm not going to say whatever I please at work but I will resist the urge to edit myself. Maybe I'll toss the 1001 list and work on the above list. Something to think about.