Life can be so funny sometimes. Bare with me here. I went to the bookstore to get a wedding gift for a wedding I'm attending next Saturday and as I was overwhelmed by the options, I started looking for a novel for myself. Anyway, I started to look for the Alchemist by Paulo Coelho, the unfortunate thing is I only remembered the authors first name and I ended up not getting anything. So I came home got a little work done and ended up watching Veronika Decides To Die. I wouldn't say I loved it, I more liked the meaning behind it. So here I am getting it's info together for this post and who so happen to write the book this movie is based on? Paulo Coelho. Life is funny sometimes.I'll be honest with you, as I watched the movie I realized that I could identify with the character. Sometimes you are so busy caught up with living the life others say you ought to be living and in the end you don't want to live. No, I never attempted suicide, I never really committed myself to much things but I welcomed death if it came. The only thing is death avoided me like the black plague. Anyway, enough depressing thoughts. The end of the movie is uplifting. Honestly speaking, the movie is not for everyone and can be slow, but look for the message in the film.
Below is the IMDB info:
The story centers on Veronika, a woman in her mid twenties who appears to have everything: good looks, good job and a great life ahead of her. Yet she decides to end her own life. She is unsuccessful and awakens in a mental hospital where she learns that she a short time to live. However in the hospital she meets people who are only 'insane' because they don't always follow society's rules. With little left to lose, Veronika embarks on a journey on which she frees herself to experience relationships and emotions and ultimately discovers what it means to live.
And here is the trailer:
This reminded me of when I lived in NYC. Trust me it is nothing like what you see on TV or the movies. If you're not connected to who you are and where you're going in life, it becomes the background of your sadness.
Some time back I fell in love with elephants and I've always loved glasses. I used to wish I had to wear glasses.
I like the open spacious feel of this room.
"It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all - in which case, you fail by default."
-J.K. Rowling
(via Quote Book)
A couple months ago, I created another blog that was geared towards my becoming a better person and becoming a person I would genuinely like to 1)be, 2)know and 3) enjoy being. Unfortunately, I lapsed in keeping it up to date, lets say it is a lapse of over a month. I believe it was a mixture of my comfort zone being threatened, a fear of knowing and accepting who I am at this moment and the fear of change. Well, something happened and I've come to my senses. Yeah me!!
I'm not going to get into what happened, but after I let go of it the proverbial blinders went with it and I became aware of the little things in life that are helpful like this video my sister put up on her blog:After watching it, I looked up Les Brown and found more of his speeches, lets just say I got motivated. What I especially liked was when he said instead of having a great year, plan to have a great decade. Oh I plan to have an excellent decade. I will be in my 30's and instead of amplifying my need for a husband and kids, I'm going to have as much fun as I can, develop myself as an individual and be happy. Whatever happen will be what it will be.
Today, I had gone on a site my brother told me about and come upon this article The science of motivation and it made sense to me. When I think of doing things I like doing for money, I become disinterested because I get away from being creative to trying to make others like what I did. This in itself is the reason I don't continue project I genuinely enjoy because I enter business mode which means business plans, costing analysis and market research. Lets just say this depress me. So I'm flipping the script, I'm going to do what I love and what gives me peace, and to hell with everything else.
Then one of the comments on the above article led me to this article, Useful positive tips which this got me thinking about Happiness. Happiness so happens to be one of the goals in my life. I don't want to live a miserable life. So in the end, I'm glad that thing happened because it got me back on track. I might get distracted but I'll always have this post to look back at and get right back on track.
This has been another Rambling Kimolisa post.
Okay, I have a hate/like thing for Rhianna. I hate the fact that she is everywhere and constantly popping up in the media. I hate the vibes I got from the interview she did on 20/20. I hated that she waited until around the time she was coming out with a album to talk about the incident with Chris Brown. But.. I hate buts. I like the music. Embarrassingly enough I have one of her songs as my ring tone. The videos are usually on point visually. I also respect her for going after what she wants in life. I guess the thing that rubs me the wrong way is that she is over produced, a perfect little package of perfection and from my posting the Bleach Quote and Bleach Quote Parte Deux you will know I detest perfection. Anywho, here is the video for Russian Roulette.
Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity."
Henry Van Dyke
(via: Bunnies Can't Blog)
As I was visiting one of my favourite blogs, Le Love and I saw this clip and then that is when it hit me like a cymbal to my head. This is what I crave. A candid conversation between to individuals and the sharing of ideas. Somehow climbing into another persons brain and seeing the world through their eyes. Plus it doesn't have to be just between a man and woman, but with anyone. I like the idea of just walking around and talking.
This reminds me of a time a guy I met from Canada who was in a different study abroad program in Italy had come down to NYC and we walked from 27th Street and 7th Ave to Union Square and back and we just talked. I can't tell you what we talked about, or what happened on the street as we walked, but it was good to have someone to talk to. He's a great artist, well I think he is, and it was nice to see his work and to be supportive. Anyway I digress.
I've been in situations, I'm not going to lie and say they were relationships, and they lacked this. Now, I'm in a place where I'm not going to enter anything with someone based on looks, because in the end, I feel something is lacking. I want to be able to talk about art, music, current affairs, a little politics, travel. Also, I am never bringing up my advanced knowledge of sex, men here don't get it and I don't think they can handle what I know.
Now, I'm going to digress some more. Yesterday, I had a lengthy discussion with one of the customers at my 7-to-5 and the impression he was giving me was that men are dogs who are all about sex and that women are gold diggers who are always asking for money. Lets just say that depressed me, but then I had a conversation with another man today and he gave me faith. In life, it's so easy to forget that we are all so different and it is so easy to lump everyone into one category, but experiences differ and these experiences colour our lives and our outlook on it. Plus, something that dawned on me was that the first person's way of thinking creates itself in his life. He expects it and he consciously or unconsciously invites it into his life.
It's important that one decides what they believe in and believe in it with all their heart. I believe I will find someone who will take long walks with me and talk about things that I will forget about in the years to come.
Wait, hold up.... I'm having an epiphany. Why should one censor themselves? As long as a statement does not hurt the feelings of another person and can be easily laughed up, it should really not be taken too seriously. No one is out there documenting every single syllable that is spoken so there is a lot of freedom to be had in the spoken word. Please bear in mind that I am a very measured person and I censor myself a lot in fear of saying something stupid or overtly sexual. The way I say I enjoy ice cream sounds very explicit. Digressing.
Well that's it for tonight. just sharing.
"Children learn what they live.
If they live with criticism, they learn to condemn.
If they live with hostility, they learn to fight.
If they live with tolerance, they learn to pardon.
If they live with approval, they learn have confidence.
If they live with love, they learn to love.
Psst! Works on adults, too."
From The Happy Guy emails I get.
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."
- Maya Angelou
"It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat."
Theodore Roosevelt
(via Bunnies Can't Write Blogs)
One of my favourite actors:
A couple days ago, I notice this round thing by the outside pipe (hose bibb) at my 7-to-5 and I thought it looked like a pear (Avocado) seed. I thought about it for a couple seconds then went along with my day. Well today when I went back there I saw that it sat atop a Styrofoam bowl and had started to sprout. It got me to thinking about opportunities. Here was this seed just sitting in an environment that could make it start to grow into a plant. As soon as it was given that little extra a bowl full of dirt it took the opportunity and grew. That is one of the important lessons Nature can give us, always embrace any and all opportunities life affords you.
Unfortunately, I am Cable-less and I can't watch Hulu from de islands (Hulu, I'm holding up one finger, guess which one) so what little clips I get of Glee, I must say I like. So the one below features one of my all time favourite songs. Yes, people, I am a Neil Diamond Fan. There I said it. There is something about his voice and they way the song is delivered. So here is the clip:
It is so funny how you could be thinking about something and then it pops up. I think it was this morning that I was thinking about Prince of Persia, a game I used to play when I was in my preteens. To say I was addicted is an understatement. At the time it was on the computer and it had an arcade format whereas you could go left or right, jump up or crouch down and running leap. I won't lie to you and say that I play the later versions that follow the themes of Lara Croft and Doom, but I still respect the game and hold it dear to my heart. So much that I had it as my wallpaper for my PC (now dead, RIP) and my old Macs (both stolen {sons of bitches}). Actually this is a variation of the picture:
A guy I was seeing say it and I actually wasted my ink printing out a pic of it with him in it. Then the guy I gave my computer to fix commented on it like it was a dirty little secret. Perhaps he was surprised I would be into that.
Anyway, while on YouTube I discovered that there was a movie coming out. I was so excited then I watched the trailer below.
I'm not excited anymore. It's a mix of not being able to relate to the story line and I'm not into the budding romance that appears to be the secondary story line. The dialog seems so cliche and wait..... It just dawned on me this is the same as the Lara Croft movie where the female has a quick wit and a body but it did not gel. To the point that I haven't seen the complete Lara Croft movie. I got irritated and switched the channel.
Sorry I digress, basically, I was a gamer and I probably will be waiting to watch this either online or on Cable. Oh and could they hook us up with some accents at least try. There will be some poor kids growing up thinking that is the way everyone talks in Persia. Lord. I'm just saying.
A guy I was seeing say it and I actually wasted my ink printing out a pic of it with him in it. Then the guy I gave my computer to fix commented on it like it was a dirty little secret. Perhaps he was surprised I would be into that.
Anyway, while on YouTube I discovered that there was a movie coming out. I was so excited then I watched the trailer below.
I'm not excited anymore. It's a mix of not being able to relate to the story line and I'm not into the budding romance that appears to be the secondary story line. The dialog seems so cliche and wait..... It just dawned on me this is the same as the Lara Croft movie where the female has a quick wit and a body but it did not gel. To the point that I haven't seen the complete Lara Croft movie. I got irritated and switched the channel.
Sorry I digress, basically, I was a gamer and I probably will be waiting to watch this either online or on Cable. Oh and could they hook us up with some accents at least try. There will be some poor kids growing up thinking that is the way everyone talks in Persia. Lord. I'm just saying.
One of my FaceBook friends posted this article,Malia Obama's Science Test: President Tells Story About Daughter's Grades (VIDEO), and I had to post it on this blog. If I was into politics this is the platform I would stand on. I think education is a valuable asset and parents should be involved in ensuring that their kids get it, want it and take advantage of it.
To be honest, up until 3rd Form at High School (that would be about 8th Grade), I got average to below average grades. Then at the end of 2nd Form, there was a ceremony for the student who did well both academically and otherwise and they were given this award name after some important lady related to the school. It was at that point that I said, I wanted that award, so I stepped up to the plate. My grades went up, I was always at the top three in the class and it felt damn good. No I didn't get the award but I did get something else, a feeling of pride and the knowledge that if I wanted something I know I have it in me to get it.
So here is the clip:
To be honest, up until 3rd Form at High School (that would be about 8th Grade), I got average to below average grades. Then at the end of 2nd Form, there was a ceremony for the student who did well both academically and otherwise and they were given this award name after some important lady related to the school. It was at that point that I said, I wanted that award, so I stepped up to the plate. My grades went up, I was always at the top three in the class and it felt damn good. No I didn't get the award but I did get something else, a feeling of pride and the knowledge that if I wanted something I know I have it in me to get it.
So here is the clip:
Love, Love this song and I'm not ashamed to say it I cried at the part in Across The Universe when they sang this song.
I am a fan of Operation Nice and as I was checking out the site, there was a link to the post, I Don't Ever Want To Judge.. Do You? by a lady named Beth who is a photographer. Anyway it reminded me of an interesting thing that happened when I was at FIT.
It was a Spring semester and I always wore a tam because it was cold to class and I also had my baggy clothes. We had a fabric content class and the professor never paid me no mind and to be honest I didn't really care. So Spring Break came and I made the decision to cut my hair and wear it really short. I went to class this time without the tam as the weather got warmer and at last I went without my head covered for the first time in a while. Lets just say the professor treated me differently, he was friendlier.
That is one of the moments in my life that sticks around in my memory. People treat people differently completely by their looks. There was the time I was in NYC and I was on Lexington Ave. around 30-something street. I was dressed comfortably ripped jeans, the kind that fits me just right and I think a T-shirt. I went into an electronic store because I wanted a digital camera and before I knew it a man of an Eastern persuasion was asking me what I wanted. I explained that I was interested in a digital camera, he asked me to show him which one in the display outside. Then I was given the strong impression I was not wanted in the store. I really took a look around and noticed everyone else was dressed in office attire and here I was looking to me like an artist type but to them a hobo. It's not to say that I was dirty, I just wasn't perfect.
The unfortunate thing is this kind of thing effects a person. I can't look at an Eastern storekeep with ease, because in the back of my head I'm thinking that they don't want me in their store. So this will make me take my hard earned dollars elsewhere and if that is what I have to do that is what I'll do.
Okay I'm running out of steam.
It was a Spring semester and I always wore a tam because it was cold to class and I also had my baggy clothes. We had a fabric content class and the professor never paid me no mind and to be honest I didn't really care. So Spring Break came and I made the decision to cut my hair and wear it really short. I went to class this time without the tam as the weather got warmer and at last I went without my head covered for the first time in a while. Lets just say the professor treated me differently, he was friendlier.
That is one of the moments in my life that sticks around in my memory. People treat people differently completely by their looks. There was the time I was in NYC and I was on Lexington Ave. around 30-something street. I was dressed comfortably ripped jeans, the kind that fits me just right and I think a T-shirt. I went into an electronic store because I wanted a digital camera and before I knew it a man of an Eastern persuasion was asking me what I wanted. I explained that I was interested in a digital camera, he asked me to show him which one in the display outside. Then I was given the strong impression I was not wanted in the store. I really took a look around and noticed everyone else was dressed in office attire and here I was looking to me like an artist type but to them a hobo. It's not to say that I was dirty, I just wasn't perfect.
The unfortunate thing is this kind of thing effects a person. I can't look at an Eastern storekeep with ease, because in the back of my head I'm thinking that they don't want me in their store. So this will make me take my hard earned dollars elsewhere and if that is what I have to do that is what I'll do.
Okay I'm running out of steam.
2. Be You!! No one else has lived or will live the life you live. They will have different experiences that shape how they live their lives, that will in turn shape their decisions. The important thing is to focus on what makes you happy and go for what you want out of life. What I've learned is when you stop trying to be like everyone else and be true to you, everyone is impressed by you and want to be like you. As B. Scott would say "Do You, Boo Boo, Do You!!"
XOXO
